...are the days that make me believe there's a higher power out there somewhere.
not only has it been beautiful out all day, and not only is it one of the best days of fall today, but someone or something out there came to my rescue today. I've never been one to consider myself a damsel in distress, but there are days I need a little (or a lot of) help. last night, after a decidedly shitty week and weekend so far, I found myself drawing up a storm (see facebook for the 'storm') out of frustration and still not feeling any better. I tried to do some feel-good stuff—finally getting a decent picture of myself on the internet, talking to friends, calling home, organizing, watching feel-good tv—but none of it did much good. I put on my mopey playlist and went to bed, just hoping not to have any nightmares like the night before.
and this morning I woke up to a flurry of facebook posts, all from people I haven't talked to in a long time or don't talk to regularly, either starting conversations, praising my artwork (which I consider to be a part of my soul), or otherwise letting me know I wasn't as alone as I've started to feel lately. the one that saved me, though, was from a friend telling me I was beautiful—I don't think anyone's ever told me that, and even though I know it myself, sometimes that isn't enough. just as I'd begun to give up hope of anyone ever appreciating me or loving any part of me, that one comment pulled me out of the darkness. you know exactly who you are, and you're probably reading this. so thank you. ♥
